"Money Can't Buy Happiness"

I truly understand the meaning of this saying now. I hate it, I hate it! Last January, Jorge started working in Columbia, which is about 120 miles from here. He rented a trailer for he and his employees. We signed a six month lease on that, which is more than we were needing it for, but, just to be on the safe side, we did it. Well, Jorge kept getting more and more job offices. He did the Police Department, library, quite a few commercial and residential jobs. Last year, when I was pregnant, he came home every night and left every morning. After Mary was born, he started leaving early Monday morning, coming home here and there, then returning to the house Saturday night through Monday morning. This got into costing him too much money in gas ($50 one way), so, he decided to stop doing this so often. Again, we thought this would be the end. He stopped doing so much work here bc he had employees leave him, go to builders and offer a cheaper bid on doing a job. Which, people are stupid and care more about money than quality. Dumb people, they'll just have to spend that extra money repairing the jobs they paid cheap prices for. And, it's only a few bucks here and there they'll save, not thousands or even hundreds of dollars. Anyway, so, this kind of ran him out of town. He has two crews, one working here, for one of his subcontractors and one working in Columbia. Well, the job in Columbia pays more, and if he leaves, the job doesn't get done and he loses money. So, he told me a few weeks ago, he just got a huge job building an extremely large church that will take about a year, just to do the brick work (which is what he does). I told him I wasn't excited about it. He said that it is a huge job that will pay him good money, so we can hurry up and pay down loans. I can't stand it. I would rather he be home, working at low paying jobs, where it takes 5-7 years to pay off your Auto loans and 30 years to pay your mortgage!!! I don't want to have everything paid off so we can have money to be greedy with!!! It's not like we have money in the bank anyway. He has been making pretty good money there, but, then turns around and spends it on maintenance for his truck, plus gas and rent for the trailer. Plus food at two homes. Because he has these "great paying jobs" we also get taxed on more money. This year, we have to pay almost $28,000 in taxes for last year for his business. Almost $15,000 of that was for self employment tax, yes, it sucks, everybody's griping about it. We are in the process of doing an LLC since he is now a legal resident, which will save us $15000 next year. But, then, we have to pay $3,000 a month just for his worker's comp and general liability policies for his business. AGGGHHH!!! I'm losing my mind. Yes, I'm complaining. He left early Monday morning, like at 430 and he will be gone until the weekend again. I was doing just fine with him coming home every few days to check on his other jobs. Now, he's hiring more people to work here in Greenville, so he can be in Columbia longer. Yes, we've considered transfering to Columbia, but, Columbia is to friggin hot, it's crowded, ridiculous, people are rude there. It's not worth the switch. Plus, we just bought our house here in Greenville, we actually have two homes here, which would be hard to sell w/o losing thousands and thousands of dollars. I hate it, I just want him home. The kids just want their daddy home. I know I'm not in the worst position possible, my heart goes out to those whose S.O.'s are out serving our country and others who are without one for various reasons. I just feel like a single mother again. I just know I'm heading for a crash landing again. I'm still sick from last week. I missed a whole week of work bc of my heavy bleeding and cramping, then the flu, then I came down with a stomach virus on Friday. I'm still feeling ill, but, life must go on, so I returned to work today. Next week starts my 3 days a week, but, I know that won't cheer the kids up. Sorry I"m blabbing, thanks for letting me vent, as always.