Sick of being Sick
I'm getting tired of being sick. Always sick with this or that. I've been to Doctor after Doctor to try and determine the problem. We never get anywhere. If anything, I leave with more questions than I went in with.
I grew up my entire life, always feeling sick with this or that. My mom started telling me it was all in my head. It hurt, but, I kept my head up. I just started laughing off their jokes. Getting married, after so many complaints, Jorge now agrees that it's all in my head. I'm not really sick. I just hear that someone is sick and I mysteriously come down with the same symptoms. Since the doctor's haven't been able to find anything, I'm almost convinced it's all in my head.
I have so many symptoms, it's hard to tell where the problems start. Who knows if it's one thing causing so many symtoms, or if each symptom is caused by something else. I have headaches, exhaustion, fatigue almost 24 hours a day. I feel down. Stomach pain. Abdominal cramping. Back cramping w/ or w/o the stomach/abdominal pain. My legs go numb, my hands go numb. My vision shakes. I feel like I have a rubberband attached to my brain from my eye and it's stretching as far as it can. Any minute, the band can break, causing my eye to fling into my brain. I have chronic pain, everywhere. In my butt, in my thighs, my knees, elbows, shoulders, wrist, hands. I get achey like I have the flu. I can't get enough sleep. I go home and fall asleep without trying. If I don't fall asleep, I get a migraine. I have menstrual problems. I constantly feel like I have something punching me in the gut. When my stomach begins to cramp, I become cold and sweaty, I get dizzy, I become nauseated. To where it can keep me down for a few hours.
I mean, my complaints are endless. If it's not one thing, it's another. I've had an ovarian cyst at the age of 15-16. I had mononucleosis in 7th grade, "the kissing disease". I had pain under my right rib cage when I was pregnant with Steven. They did an u/s and determined I did have "something" on my gallbladder, but, couldn't do surgery then due to the pregnancy. If the problems worsened, they could check it again. Didn't have any more problems in that area until after Mary was born. I would be doing nothing, doing just fine, then all of a sudden, get cramps in my abdominal area. I would get hot flashes and become dizzy. I could be either with constipation or diarrhea, didn't make a difference. It never made a difference. After sending me for an u/s on that area, they determined I had polyps, but, the surgeon assured me the polyps wouldn't cause symptoms such as mine. Nevertheless, when I had an attack a few days later, I was rushed to the hospital, put up with IV's and had emergency gallbladder removal surgery the following day.
After they took my gallbladder, I felt as if everything would be better. I could get on with my life, with my children and husband and be better. Instead, things only worsened. Not only did I continue having the same problems, they worsened and I had more frequent attacks with eating simple meals. After talking with my surgeon again, he explained since the gallbladder was no longer there, it couldn't rid of the excess bile. I would have to take a nasty powder called cholestyramine (or something like that). The powder doesn't dissolve with water. I took it 1/2 a time. I had a major problem with the texture. It's not made to dissolve, instead, it's a binding agent or something or the other to help. The doctor said most people are better within the month. Instead, I didn't take any more and am not any better.
I'm now convinced, it wasn't my gallbladder causing the problems. Something else is going on in there. Something that can't be found until we know exactly what we're looking for. So where do I start?? Do they just need to start ripping out my intestines and such? Will that help to find the problem? Should I not eat, breathe, drink or sleep until they find the problem?? Exploratory surgery??
I'm getting sick just thinking about it. My poor children need their mommy. Daddy is hardly ever home. How am I supposed to take care of my children, if I'm constantly falling asleep?? I have an appointment with the family physician 06/03 to tell him, "Look, I'm sick of being, well, sick. You need to do something or I'm going to go crazy!" We'll see if that helps.
A few months back, a friend showed me an interesting website on excess yeast growing. I was interested and it sounded a lot like my case. But, at the same time, it sounded too much like my case. I'm going to look more into it, by studying my own lifestyle. I need to keep a diary of all of my problems. Maybe one day, we can have a breakthrough in the case and solve the mystery!
I grew up my entire life, always feeling sick with this or that. My mom started telling me it was all in my head. It hurt, but, I kept my head up. I just started laughing off their jokes. Getting married, after so many complaints, Jorge now agrees that it's all in my head. I'm not really sick. I just hear that someone is sick and I mysteriously come down with the same symptoms. Since the doctor's haven't been able to find anything, I'm almost convinced it's all in my head.
I have so many symptoms, it's hard to tell where the problems start. Who knows if it's one thing causing so many symtoms, or if each symptom is caused by something else. I have headaches, exhaustion, fatigue almost 24 hours a day. I feel down. Stomach pain. Abdominal cramping. Back cramping w/ or w/o the stomach/abdominal pain. My legs go numb, my hands go numb. My vision shakes. I feel like I have a rubberband attached to my brain from my eye and it's stretching as far as it can. Any minute, the band can break, causing my eye to fling into my brain. I have chronic pain, everywhere. In my butt, in my thighs, my knees, elbows, shoulders, wrist, hands. I get achey like I have the flu. I can't get enough sleep. I go home and fall asleep without trying. If I don't fall asleep, I get a migraine. I have menstrual problems. I constantly feel like I have something punching me in the gut. When my stomach begins to cramp, I become cold and sweaty, I get dizzy, I become nauseated. To where it can keep me down for a few hours.
I mean, my complaints are endless. If it's not one thing, it's another. I've had an ovarian cyst at the age of 15-16. I had mononucleosis in 7th grade, "the kissing disease". I had pain under my right rib cage when I was pregnant with Steven. They did an u/s and determined I did have "something" on my gallbladder, but, couldn't do surgery then due to the pregnancy. If the problems worsened, they could check it again. Didn't have any more problems in that area until after Mary was born. I would be doing nothing, doing just fine, then all of a sudden, get cramps in my abdominal area. I would get hot flashes and become dizzy. I could be either with constipation or diarrhea, didn't make a difference. It never made a difference. After sending me for an u/s on that area, they determined I had polyps, but, the surgeon assured me the polyps wouldn't cause symptoms such as mine. Nevertheless, when I had an attack a few days later, I was rushed to the hospital, put up with IV's and had emergency gallbladder removal surgery the following day.
After they took my gallbladder, I felt as if everything would be better. I could get on with my life, with my children and husband and be better. Instead, things only worsened. Not only did I continue having the same problems, they worsened and I had more frequent attacks with eating simple meals. After talking with my surgeon again, he explained since the gallbladder was no longer there, it couldn't rid of the excess bile. I would have to take a nasty powder called cholestyramine (or something like that). The powder doesn't dissolve with water. I took it 1/2 a time. I had a major problem with the texture. It's not made to dissolve, instead, it's a binding agent or something or the other to help. The doctor said most people are better within the month. Instead, I didn't take any more and am not any better.
I'm now convinced, it wasn't my gallbladder causing the problems. Something else is going on in there. Something that can't be found until we know exactly what we're looking for. So where do I start?? Do they just need to start ripping out my intestines and such? Will that help to find the problem? Should I not eat, breathe, drink or sleep until they find the problem?? Exploratory surgery??
I'm getting sick just thinking about it. My poor children need their mommy. Daddy is hardly ever home. How am I supposed to take care of my children, if I'm constantly falling asleep?? I have an appointment with the family physician 06/03 to tell him, "Look, I'm sick of being, well, sick. You need to do something or I'm going to go crazy!" We'll see if that helps.
A few months back, a friend showed me an interesting website on excess yeast growing. I was interested and it sounded a lot like my case. But, at the same time, it sounded too much like my case. I'm going to look more into it, by studying my own lifestyle. I need to keep a diary of all of my problems. Maybe one day, we can have a breakthrough in the case and solve the mystery!
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