The clouds are starting to part.......
On May 18th, I was saved. I became a new believer and started studying the Bible. I started feeling sick and started to turn away from the church. I didn't attend for 3 weeks, I didn't do my required bible study and didn't do my "homework". I just felt too sick to attend services and felt it was more important for me to stay home an be sick.
Last week, the doctor diagnosed me as having a delayed postpartum depression. He prescribed me an antidepressant. I found the more I took the medicine, the worse I felt. Everyone kept telling me to hang in there and to at least take it for "blah" long and see how I feel then. I tried, I kept trying. I just couldn't do it.
When I told Jorge about it, he was upset by this. He was worried about the adverse reactions I might have, and became even more worried after I continued to have nausea. He begged me to stop taking the medicine and get back into going to church, seek out counsel from the church, and bury myself in Bible study. I thought, "Jorge is not even a believer, what does he know?"
Monday morning, I came into work and decided to tell my boss and his wife about my "illness". I wanted to make them aware of possible side effects and why I might seem different or might have to miss work. They were saddened by this, but, agreed to support me in every way possible. They also suggested me to seek out counsel from the church and offered to assist me in doing so. My bosses wife explained to me that what was happening to me, was a battle of good and evil inside my body.
When I became a believer, I got phone calls from people near and far, people I knew and people I didn't. Some were unemployed, some were Doctors, others were just well wishers. The one thing they all had in common, was telling me that Satan would be pissed and would be seeking out ways to get me to turn against the Lord. I didn't understand this and thought everyone was joking.
When I started talking with my bosses wife, she explained to me, what I was experiencing, wasn't at all uncommon in new believers. She said that Satan was trying to fight with me to bring me back down to feeling low again, so I would turn against the Lord. She said it was a fight of good and evil in my body. This is where it all started becoming a little more clear. She said that I need to find scripture I can relate to whenever I'm feeling down. That would lift my spirits back up.
Monday night, come time to take my pill, I sat down with pill and water on the table. I made me a nice bagel to scarf down before my pill. I ate my bagel and began to take my pill. All of a sudden, something held me back. Something told me to sit and think about the pill I was about to ingest. What would be the consequences?? Are the side effects of this pill worth it? Nausea so severe, I can't see straight, can't think straight, can't walk straight. Vomiting so severe, I was becoming deydrated.
Then it hit me, my husband begged me not to take the pill. The Lord has softened Jorge's heart enough, that Jorge understood that prayer and scripture would help me more than any pill. He told me he didn't want me to ever feel I need some sort of pill to make me feel better. He said I need to realize what I'm worth to him and what I'm worth to my family. What good am I if I'm under the effect of this anti depressant?
I put the pill back in the bottle and went to bed. The next morning, I woke up, feeling better than ever. I don't ever recall waking up feeling so alert, without pain, so ready to deal with whatever the day had to bring. I got up, made breakfast, did my cleaning. I washed clothes. I met with the babysitter I was interviewing. I had an appointment I attended then returned home. I sat the kids down to play quietly. I then proceeded to open my Bible and my study booklet. I read my Bible for 3 hours straight. I studied different scripture.
I realized, I felt so much better. I normally feel depressed when I realize I'm alone since Jorge's gone most of the week. After reading what I did, I realized that I am not alone, for He is with me.
I have not taken my pill now in 3 days. Even though I hardly started taking them, they had a big effect on me.
If you know someone experiencing things like me, who are steps away from becoming a believer, please continue to pray. For once they learn the power of prayer and Bible study, the side effects are far better than those of any prescription.
Last week, the doctor diagnosed me as having a delayed postpartum depression. He prescribed me an antidepressant. I found the more I took the medicine, the worse I felt. Everyone kept telling me to hang in there and to at least take it for "blah" long and see how I feel then. I tried, I kept trying. I just couldn't do it.
When I told Jorge about it, he was upset by this. He was worried about the adverse reactions I might have, and became even more worried after I continued to have nausea. He begged me to stop taking the medicine and get back into going to church, seek out counsel from the church, and bury myself in Bible study. I thought, "Jorge is not even a believer, what does he know?"
Monday morning, I came into work and decided to tell my boss and his wife about my "illness". I wanted to make them aware of possible side effects and why I might seem different or might have to miss work. They were saddened by this, but, agreed to support me in every way possible. They also suggested me to seek out counsel from the church and offered to assist me in doing so. My bosses wife explained to me that what was happening to me, was a battle of good and evil inside my body.
When I became a believer, I got phone calls from people near and far, people I knew and people I didn't. Some were unemployed, some were Doctors, others were just well wishers. The one thing they all had in common, was telling me that Satan would be pissed and would be seeking out ways to get me to turn against the Lord. I didn't understand this and thought everyone was joking.
When I started talking with my bosses wife, she explained to me, what I was experiencing, wasn't at all uncommon in new believers. She said that Satan was trying to fight with me to bring me back down to feeling low again, so I would turn against the Lord. She said it was a fight of good and evil in my body. This is where it all started becoming a little more clear. She said that I need to find scripture I can relate to whenever I'm feeling down. That would lift my spirits back up.
Monday night, come time to take my pill, I sat down with pill and water on the table. I made me a nice bagel to scarf down before my pill. I ate my bagel and began to take my pill. All of a sudden, something held me back. Something told me to sit and think about the pill I was about to ingest. What would be the consequences?? Are the side effects of this pill worth it? Nausea so severe, I can't see straight, can't think straight, can't walk straight. Vomiting so severe, I was becoming deydrated.
Then it hit me, my husband begged me not to take the pill. The Lord has softened Jorge's heart enough, that Jorge understood that prayer and scripture would help me more than any pill. He told me he didn't want me to ever feel I need some sort of pill to make me feel better. He said I need to realize what I'm worth to him and what I'm worth to my family. What good am I if I'm under the effect of this anti depressant?
I put the pill back in the bottle and went to bed. The next morning, I woke up, feeling better than ever. I don't ever recall waking up feeling so alert, without pain, so ready to deal with whatever the day had to bring. I got up, made breakfast, did my cleaning. I washed clothes. I met with the babysitter I was interviewing. I had an appointment I attended then returned home. I sat the kids down to play quietly. I then proceeded to open my Bible and my study booklet. I read my Bible for 3 hours straight. I studied different scripture.
I realized, I felt so much better. I normally feel depressed when I realize I'm alone since Jorge's gone most of the week. After reading what I did, I realized that I am not alone, for He is with me.
I have not taken my pill now in 3 days. Even though I hardly started taking them, they had a big effect on me.
If you know someone experiencing things like me, who are steps away from becoming a believer, please continue to pray. For once they learn the power of prayer and Bible study, the side effects are far better than those of any prescription.
posted by Tara @ 6:35 PM
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