Been a long time since we've seen each other.....

Wow~is all I can say. I can't believe how long it has been since I have logged on. I'm trying to do better at this. I do keep a journal, if only I could copy from journal to my blog. Oh well. I mean, no one reads this anyway.
Hmmmm.......so much has happened this summer. With quitting to stay home, it has been a totally new learning experience. When I stayed home last year, it was so much easier because Mary was a tiny baby and Lucy was old enough to play by herself. Everyone entertained themselves and I got a lot of relax time. Now, I am Mary's entertainer. When she snaps her fingers, I have to jump. It has taken so much out of me. She is so active and expects to be entertained almost 24/7. With Lucy and Steven both in school all day, she has no one to play with.
I get scared being home alone during the daytime (noises and such), so I volunteered at the school, again. I don't know why I do this. I'm not sure if it's something mental, trying to please people. I don't know if it's wanting people to have sympathy for me or whatever. I can't stop volunteering. Yeah, it's a good thing. My children definitely benefit from it, and Mary gets the experience of being in a public school, though she won't go for at least 3 more years. Lucy is in K4 and Steven is repeating K5. I am the Room mom for Lucy's classroom and I also volunteered to help during the lunch hour (organizing the children, helping them open their milks and snacks), but, that was only for the first few weeks. This week, I went twice, next week? We'll see.
I help both classes every Thursday, stuffing their envelopes, with school information and fliers. That takes 30 minutes, at most, but, I like to spend the lunch time with them. Now that I have two, it takes twice as long during lunch. I'm in the lunch room from 1040 to 1130, two different class rooms.
My being away from home has really affected our home life. So much, that I told Jorge I wouldn't be home after he got back from work the next day. I was telling him I was going to leave. I am allowing myself to get too stressed out. On top of volunteering at the school, I also help out at my old job, this month, I've only had to do it twice, for a few hours a day. I have some CE courses to go to, so that puts a little more on my agenda. Then, every Tuesday morning, Bible Study. Every other Wednesday night, Shepherding groups, every other Wednesday, choir practice for Lucy.
With me slowing down on joining the kids for lunch, I've sorta filled that gap with working out at the gym. Mom and I have gone to the Sportsclub, to play Racquetball. Wow, what a work out. I hope the exercising will get me to feel better about myself, so that would be one less thing on my mind.
Jorge and I worked out our issues. I allow myself to get too stressed out and I take it out on him. He is trying so hard to please me. He has even started attending church. He has work now here in town.
I haven't really had time to talk with any friends at all, I don't even go to my old job to visit, which is unlike me. I take the kids to school at 745, go to the gym from 830-1000, go to the school to help or eat lunch until 1200. I come home for two hours-which I use to clean or run errands. At 215, leave to pick up the kids, we get ice cream everyday and get home at 330. By this time, I feel like my day job is finally ending and it's time to go to sleep. So, I nap until about 7, more like rest. I have 4 kids in my household during this time. At that time, I get up, hurry and clean some more, make supper, get the kids ready for bed, then back to bed I go. I don't have any other life outside of my current one.
Sucks, huh??
Nice to see you again. Like I said, I'm pretty sure no one will read you, so, I am not in a hurry to write again. See you when I see you!