Holy Moly, didn't remember I had this

I've been looking for a way out, a way to escape my life for a little while and I completely forgot I had this. Don't know where to start....guess need to start transferring.
First off, life is so hard. I know I brought it on myself. I wish I hadn't done what I did. There's absolutely no excuse for what I did. I was at a time of my life where I knew I should have looked to counseling, and I didn't, I turned the other way.
I've hurt many people along the way, but, the healing is starting. I never realized healing was going to be so painful. Having to relive everything. It's not easy for anybody.
I'm trying not to write stories, but, this will turn into one. I'm tired of being too detailed, too many people feel that it's none of their business, but, it's human nature......people want to see.
I made some terrible decisions that I regret horribly. As time passes, I'm sure everything will start coming out.....
(Yes, I'm trying to change dates, just to catch up)