On the path to being forgiven????
I hope.
Jorge has not come out to tell me he forgives me. He has told me he doesn't hold it against me and he no longer hates me. He says that he loves me even more now. He said that he wants to be with me until the day he dies, regardless of what has happened in the past. He said that it can't be changed. The past won't go away, but we can be sure to love each other even more than we ever have.
I am having a sort of a service next week, for my Angels in heaven. I have 2. One with Jorge and the other not. I told Jorge he could pick the name of our baby for the dedication service. I had to worry about picking a name for my other child, and deciding on the last name. This was a few weeks ago. We never said anything about it afterwards.
Yesterday I asked him if he had thought about a name, and he came out with a few. He was very proud of himself. He asked me if I had decided on a name for my baby. I told him the name that I had settled on and mentioned the last name situation again. He says, "You can use our last name. I want you to use our last name." I told him that it wasn't fair to him and he didn't have to do that. He told me that he knows the naming is important for me and he says that his last name is still mine, and that had the baby been born, he would have been the one to help care for him, so, he would have had his last name.
I was completely blown away. To most people, this means crap. Oh whatever, just saying I could use his last name. But it's not that small. This is a service where my babies will be named. This is something we're doing in front of God, in His house.
The floodgates just opened after that. I cried and cried. I felt another feeling of relief. He knows how important this is for me and he's put everything behind us (even if only temporarily) so he can comfort me.
We've just had an amazing time. Things seem to be improving.
Jorge has not come out to tell me he forgives me. He has told me he doesn't hold it against me and he no longer hates me. He says that he loves me even more now. He said that he wants to be with me until the day he dies, regardless of what has happened in the past. He said that it can't be changed. The past won't go away, but we can be sure to love each other even more than we ever have.
I am having a sort of a service next week, for my Angels in heaven. I have 2. One with Jorge and the other not. I told Jorge he could pick the name of our baby for the dedication service. I had to worry about picking a name for my other child, and deciding on the last name. This was a few weeks ago. We never said anything about it afterwards.
Yesterday I asked him if he had thought about a name, and he came out with a few. He was very proud of himself. He asked me if I had decided on a name for my baby. I told him the name that I had settled on and mentioned the last name situation again. He says, "You can use our last name. I want you to use our last name." I told him that it wasn't fair to him and he didn't have to do that. He told me that he knows the naming is important for me and he says that his last name is still mine, and that had the baby been born, he would have been the one to help care for him, so, he would have had his last name.
I was completely blown away. To most people, this means crap. Oh whatever, just saying I could use his last name. But it's not that small. This is a service where my babies will be named. This is something we're doing in front of God, in His house.
The floodgates just opened after that. I cried and cried. I felt another feeling of relief. He knows how important this is for me and he's put everything behind us (even if only temporarily) so he can comfort me.
We've just had an amazing time. Things seem to be improving.


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