Anger and Forgiveness

We're trying to get through this Anger and Forgiveness issue. I realized that Jorge started drinking more and it really made me upset. He snapped on me and told me it was the only way he could through all of this stress. He didn't tell me it was my fault, but, I know better. He never liked drinking before. I told him that I didn't want that kind of person in my children's lives. I emptied the bottle and he completely flipped out. Oh well, at least that's gone.
Someone in my Bible Study mentioned asking certain people if they would forgive us. I mentioned that to Jorge and told him that I was sure we weren't at that stage yet. He just kinda said, Uh, and that was it. I got a little upset after that. Okay, really upset. With him drinking, and with the way he responded, it made me realize, he doesn't even know if he wants to forgive me. He doesn't know how to. He doesn't want to learn, bc that means he would be reminded of everything that happened. I told him that he drinks so he doesn't have to face our problems. He doesn't want to think about it. I have made major improvements and have taken several steps to apologize to him and show that I want to be a good wife. I cook dinner, I wake up at 5am to make him lunch. I have really thrown myself into activities to show him that I want to put my family first. I have done everything I possibly can and he hasn't done anything. He told me at the beginning that he forgave me, but, he doesn't understand the true meaning of forgiveness.
I told him that I can't live like that my whole life. It may not be today, tomorrow, next month, or next year, but, he needs to go ahead and decide if he even wants to forgive me. If not, then why waste our time together?