Still trying to take a break

So today is Sunday. It is now 145 and I have had 2 complete meltdowns in the last 48 hours. 2 meltdowns where Jorge had to peel me off the floor or the bed. That's about 3 meltdowns total in the last 4 days. I was still sobbing uncontrollably and Jorge was trying to help. He finally got frustrated and was ready to give up. Then all of a sudden he grabbed me and literally peeled me off the bed and just hugged me tight and told me he was going to be there for me. I hope so. Life is just so hard right now. I think my meds are finally starting to kick in. I've been able to get out of bed today and feel totally rested and had clear thoughts. For a few days, I felt like my mind was just flipping through channels. Today, so far, I've been able to go grocery shopping, wash a load of laundry, wash dishes, and make lunch. I hope it's getting better. The thoughts I was having were very scary.