I'm baaaaaaaack!!!!

To my black hole, that is. I just feel so black.....so depressed. I don't know why anymore. My mom's divorce is affecting me horribly. I don't even like the dude and I'm crying all the time. I think what she's doing right now, is like deja vu for me. They have been reminding me of the bitter divorce between her and my father. It is really making me sad. Jorge said that we've almost been there. Thing is, "almost", we're not there yet. We're still living together, so we're chosing to be stupid and try and stick it out.
I've been sleeping in real late; yesterday I slept in until 4pm. Granted, I did a few things throughout the day, I had kids with me, they had to eat. I bathed the kids, I cleaned house, swept the carpet (the belt broke on my vc), washed dishes, even cleaned out a closet. I took the kids to get some donuts, they ate supper, had dessert, watched a movie, did homework and were put in bed.
I was in bed by 1100 but I wasn't ready to go to bed. I couldn't stop crying. Jorge asked me what was wrong and I told him I wasn't sure, I was just so sad. So he asked if I took my "pills". Hahahahahaha, I wish those really worked. If they could take away my problems, I'd od on them. But reality is, they won't. Nothing will get better. I just have to stick it out.
Problem is, it is so much more comfy in my dark hole. Everybody knows that I like it there. Most won't ask what is wrong, so I can be by myself. So if I disappear, you know where I went.